HardWork is necessary, but motivation is the prime one

Our big Princess (ms. Lrd) wrote this article last year:

One of my friends told me to write my stories or opinions In English, on my blog . She said that it would help me to improve my confidence in using English every time, everywhere. Actually I had the same idea before but I am too shy to publish it on my blog (even actually I never published my blog too :P). This because I know that I still have a huge problem with the grammar. So, don't laugh at me if you find some mistakes here. Just tell me what's wrong, and I will correct it immediately.


Currently, I am trying to study English again, taking a course preparing for an IELTS Exam. I hope, in couple of months I can achieve minimum score limit to apply scholarship to study abroad. I never take an IELTS or TOEFL exam before, but I thought there is a wide gap between my ability and the target, especially for writing and speaking section.

Deep inside, I know that I can improve the score if I prepare for it seriously. But my spirit fluctuated frequently, sometimes high, and then down faster without permission. I have planned to wake up in early morning (around 3 a.m) every day to study, but until now it is just a plan which has never been implemented in the real world.

Sometimes I think why it happens, why my spirit always flies away easily? .. and... I don’t know the answer. Can you tell me? What should I do to keep the spirit?

Oh, Okay..
I lie if I said I don’t know the answer. I know of course... It is because I have wrong motivation to study. Actually, my reason to take postgraduate degree abroad doesn’t come from the willingness to study. I can't stand on the idea to study at university again. So, my real motivation to study abroad for postgraduate degree are:
First; I wanna see Europe or United States by free!!! :P
Second; My brother and my father are PHD candidate and my mother just have finished postgraduate degree in her age of 56th years old. My brother and sister in law also have got that degree too, so do many friends of mine. So, I think they will not appreciate me if I am still happy with undergraduate degree only.
Third; The postgraduate degree from foreign University can be a good point to improve my value in office.

Hahaha..
So, can you get the point?
I absolutely have a wrong reason to study. That's why I can't push myself to study hard.
Can I change it and make it right?  I don't know… and I don''t lie this time..

(This article was writtten in 2010. How's about now? I think she already changed the motivation. Because she already passed the SDM TOEFL score requirement. Only lunch which is not yet treated for us..he....he... )